Out of the Gray Zone

Journal Entry written May 2001:

Unfortuntely I have a problem with denial a lot. I am constanly denying my feelings when others ask how I am. People think that I am strong and that I am coping, well a lot of it is just fake and a front.

I worry about making others feel uncomfortable or depressed. There are so many reminders everyday of my life that my son is dead. I don't think I'll ever forget even though it seems others already have.